A Word On Net Neutrality

If it weren’t for the Internet, I wouldn’t have a lot of things: A tribe of people who really get me, friends that I will have for the rest of my life, and my book.

But the Internet we all know and love is in danger. The new head of the FCC is working to dismantle net neutrality. Net neutrality is the basic principle that protects our free speech on the Internet. “Title II” of the Communications Act is what provides the legal foundation for net neutrality and prevents Internet Service Providers like Comcast, Verizon, and AT&T from slowing down and blocking websites, or charging apps and sites extra fees to reach an audience (which they then pass along to consumers.)

We cannot allow this to happen or it will destroy the Internet that we know and love (and love hate). Title II helps the web foster creativity and innovation, to keep doing what has been doing since it’s inception. Let’s not let big corporations take over. Please send a letter to Congress and the FCC by going here: Battle for the Net .

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I’ve Been Reading…

When I find I can’t write, I go into reading mode. I recharge my writing batteries by soaking up other people’s words. One thing I have been trying to do of late is diversify my reading fare so that I can access a wider variety of voices and experiences. It has not been disappointing.

In fact, I struggled with last few novels I’d tried to read before beginning to branch out. I found I wasn’t getting into them the way I’d hoped to. I was pleasantly surprised to find that the first couple of books by authors of color have proven to be excellent and well worth my time. I think they will be well worth yours too.

In The Language of Miracles by Raijia Hassib

This book begins one year after the death of two teenagers. One is the son of Egyptian immigrants, the other the daughter of their American next-door neighbors. The families shared a close relationship until tragedy struck. That the boy’s family is Muslim is the crux of the story. Once accepted into the community, they have become outcasts. The book shows us the struggles of the parents and their younger son and how all their lives were shattered in so many ways that day.

The Underground Railroad by Colson Whitehead

I was surprised to find how much I liked this book given the heavy subject matter. It follows a girl after she escapes from the Georgia plantation where she is a slave. It is full of heartbreak and hope. And it’s really well written. I devoured it, and am looking forward to reading his other work.

The Honeymoon Phase

I hate writing, I love having written.   —Dorothy Parker

Every story, every book begins brilliantly. Words flow onto the page without effort and man, do they sing. This is the part of writing I love. The writing. The first echoes of what is taking up space in my head and begging to get on the page. This is the honeymoon phase.

The honeymoon phase is that time in your writing before it sucks, when you are in love with writing, in love with what you are working on, in love with your idea. It is blissful. It is short-lived. With short stories it seems to last as long as it takes me to get a first draft written. With my novel-in-progress it ended about halfway through the first draft. Sit with things too long and they lose their flavor. Familiarity and all that.

After the honeymoon, well, there is the assurance that you are a fraud and nobody, even your mother, will want to read the dreck that ended up on the page—and you have no idea how it did. This is most certainly not what you wrote. You have no idea where the hell that went, but it was so good. Somewhere in the night the writing faeries must have broken in to your computer and bolloxed everything up.

This is when it goes on the shelf. The drawer. That folder on your desktop full of wonderful beginnings gone wrong.

Then, when the proper time has passed (a few weeks for me), you open it again and find that the faeries have come back and it it’s not half bad if you do say so yourself. It’s not the masterpiece you wrote, but it’s a good start.

And then you get to work. The editing. The beta readers. The crushing doubt. In the end you won’t have a clue what you have, but there it is.

That’s this life.

The Big D

 

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D is for didn’t. We didn’t intend to pick up and move just yet.

D is for Dallas. This is where we are now.

D is for doubt. I’ve completed a story that I’ve been working on and I’m ready to submit it. In theory. In fact, I am thinking that it might not be good enough. that it will never be good enough. But I have committed myself to submitting enough to get rejected at least 50 times. That might only take 50 submissions at this point, but once I get there I’ll tack on more to my goal. This could go on for a while.

What if I reach 100 rejections with not one acceptance? I can’t think about that right now. It’s too devastating. Devastating to the point that it would make me consider stopping all together.

There are two more stories on deck and a third that I might consider submitting. If I submit each of the four stories to three different journals, that would be 12 rejections. Less than half of my goal. Can my ego take that?

Do I have a choice?

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Scenes From A Novel(ist)

24566134363_a1127020d2I’m 60 pages into the novel I’ve finally decided to write. Over 21,000 words. And I am utterly and completely lost.

Writing a short story is like taking a direct path while writing a novel feels as if I’m wandering all over the place. I’m not even fully writing it in order. I’ve written scenes in the middle and toward the end. There is a beginning. I did start there. Except it was right at the end. There’s a cliffhanger and even I don’t know how it ends yet. But it’s a story about becoming, and my word for the year is “stretch,” so I’m stretching to become a novelist.

I wrote one once, one kid and two dogs ago. It is not good (nor should it be). I tried to rewrite it, but my heart wasn’t in it. The book was written prove to myself that I could do it. A Month of Sundays was written so that I could have a published work. Accomplishment for accomplishment’s sake. But this? Finishing this, and I mean finishing it in a way that it might actually be ready to be a book, means that I am fully committing to this writing thing. That I am going to put myself out there for rejection, rejection of something that feels at the moment like it’s actually being extracted from me. That’s some scary shit.

Scary is good. I’m not in mortal danger, simply in danger of taking death blows to my ego, which only feels like you’re going to die. At least that’s what I’m counting on. But this is the stuff of life, isn’t it? Doing what scares you? I’m sure someone told me that once, although I suspect that whoever decided it was a thing was simply trying to reassure themselves. Fear was designed to keep us safe. But not from a politely worded rejection letter from Doubleday.

I’m preparing for failure. It’s not that intend to fail, but if I allow that it could actually happen, I hope to let go enough to make something really good. Right now it feels like it sucks (no, I haven’t read any of it yet) and that there is no there, there and there might never be (how many theres can you write in a row and still have a coherent sentence?).

That’s what first drafts are for, right?

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